Well, folks, I’m back on the diagnostic train. On August 1, 2017, I had my second surgery for endometriosis (finally, after this disaster went down). Recovery was surprisingly fast and fairly uneventful. Following recovery, I realized I was still in pain. Still struggling to do mundane, everyday tasks. I can’t begin to put into words how upsetting this is/was. I didn’t talk about it to any one, not even my mom, for weeks. After realizing that everyone around me thought I was better, so I slowly broke the news. It was hard because I didn’t even want to admit it to myself, much less my loved ones.
I looked back and thought to all the specialists who told me my pain wasn’t from endometriosis. But during my last surgery, my doctor told me that I was absolutely covered in endo. What gives?! At least now I could stretch normally without feeling as though my body was ripping apart – so the surgery did change some things. But I still can’t walk very far without being in pain.
- wake up every morning feeling like I’ve been hit by a truck.
- can’t stand for two long before it feels like my legs are being ripped off of my body.
- wake myself up with my own screams of pain in the middle of the night.
The doctor warned me…
My specialist had warned me that surgery would make me worse. It has. I am now in more pain than I previously was. I don’t regret having the surgery, though. Now I know that my body was being slowly consumed by endometriosis. I also had my appendix removed, so I also know that no one can suspect appendicitis when I go to the ER because of the severe pain. The value of knowing these things is priceless to me. But what is the price of asking for a life without pain? Why can’t I get there?
But chiropractors are way cooler than I thought
A couple of weeks ago, I saw a chiropractor for the first time in my life (see here for clinic information). I can’t believe I’ve never seen a chiropractor before! The chiropractor was able to confirm that the pain is coming from my sacroiliac joints, which is likely the reason it sometimes feels like my legs are being ripped off my body. She might be able to offer some help, but we’ll see. After a session of acupuncture and adjustment, I didn’t exactly leave feeling better (actually it was the exact opposite), but I did get a better idea of where my pain is, and that I’m experiencing a lot of referred pain. So now I’m going through all of the diagnostic tests for sacroiliitis: ultrasounds and MRIs and x-rays, oh my!
Endometriosis is just a bitch.
To say that this process is frustrating is an understatement. I think I’m mostly angry at my body for still being in so much pain. For not being able to do the normal things that people do. I just want to be a normal 27-year-old, is that too much to ask for?